I have serious writer’s block. My brain slams the door in my face every time I sit down to write, just like our nasty upstairs neighbor. I knocked on her door and begged her to ask her little girls if they could take a one-hour break from dragging chairs across the floor and bouncing a ball because I’m trying to write. All I was asking (nicely) for was one fucking hour of quiet and she still slammed the door in my face. My brain always produces lots and lots of thoughts but lately it’s become a Chinese sweatshop. It doesn’t leave any room for the thoughts and ideas I actually want. It’s my fault, though. As soon as I let it off its guard and convinced it that life is too short to not eat exquisite cakes full of butter and sugar, have some wine, and take a break from my yoga routine, it started to do and think whatever it wants. And then, when the allergies and cold symptoms showed up, the regrets won’t let it shut up. “You are so stupid! What were you thinking? You deserve it!”
So now I’m screwed. I have a runny nose, headaches, and unpleasant weakness from trying to cough because of the snot that drips down my throat and tickles it in the most annoying way, and I feel miserable and stupid. Luckily, tissue paper is one thing that is cheap in the Holy Land. I wonder if the government intentionally made it cheap to allow its citizens to cry in peace without worrying about the price.
This week, or forever, no dairy and no refined sugar. It’s been so hard lately to quit sugar. Any sugar. My paternal grandmother, who was one tough and disciplined lady, quit sugar completely – not even fruit – after she was diagnosed with diabetes at age 55. Thanks to that, she never had any diabetes complications and she lived to the age of 96. I’m not suggesting that you eat healthy in order to live forever; I’m suggesting that you eat healthy so you can live a kleenex-free life.
Now, about this Cashew e Pepe recipe. It’s like “Cacio e Pepe,” but without the cheese and butter. Do you like creamy things? Of course you do. Who doesn’t? My mom and one friend of mine actually claim that they dislike creamy food, yet somehow they always end up eating creamy things, and then continue to deny it. They’ll say, “Usually I don’t like creamy things but I like this, a lot.”
This pasta is creamy but not heavy. It’s as delicious as Cacio e Pepe but it won’t give you heartburn. It’s extremely easy and quick to make, but remember to soak the cashews in filtered water in advance, overnight is better, but if you forget to do it the night before, you can soak them in boiled water for 30 minutes and it works fine too – especially if you have a decent blender or food processor. The one I have now is crappy so it’s not as smooth as I would like it to be.